Where to begin?

Well, here goes nothing. There are a lot of things on my plate at the moment. I currently have a five year old attending preschool three times a week. His name is Ryan. I have a four month old who is attached to me at the hip most of the time....His name is Shane. I LOVE my boys. Wow, you truly don't know what love is until you have kids. Amazing.

My husband Dave and I just purchased a bigger house and moved from Yarrow to Sardis on the 20th of January. We moved from a dinky little 920sq ft house (which, originally was just fine for the two of us) to a grand spacious two level, 2,000 sq ft house ( which is great for the kids.) I truly love it here. There was no break in period. It felt like home right away! I wish we still lived in Yarrow, but this was a good trade off. There are still a few boxes left to unpack, but thoses are the boxes of things that you really don't know what to do with. I can't chuck them, (as Suzy and Cass would like me to) I will use them, just need to find them their "spot"

My grandma was taken to the hospital again this past weekend. She has pneumonia. My aunt Betty called me last night to tell me the news. They have her on some strong antibiotics and will stay. They don't know how long at this point but will keep me informed. My grandma has been my rock through my whole life. Together, we have suffered great losses but have managed to keep each other sane. With the death of my mom Karen at 34 years of age, my uncle Dennis in his early 20's and my grandpa Tak in his early 60's. I don't know how my grandma has managed not to wallow in sorrow. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of my mom. I miss her greatly. I think of all things I wish I could share with her now, now that I finally understand the things she told me I would when I grew up. Funny how that works.

My health has been rather shitty lately. It started about a week or two before the move. Pain throughout my body. The most pain of course is in my hands, wrists, knees are real bad, ankles, feet and toes. I struggle the most in the morning and then as the day wears on, I seem to "loosen" up. Meds help with that as well. I have been to the MD and had some blood work done. It came back positive for rheumatoid arthritis. I went to the specialist and he said to me after he examined me that he was confused. Of course, that's the way I'm made. I'm here to stump everyone. He told me that had he not had the positive RA blood work, he would say that I have lupus. He is sending me to a dermatologist on the 15th of February to examine the rash on my face and then I seem him in follow up on the 20th. I don't know how much he can do for me considering I am not willing to take any medication at this point since I'm still nursing Shane. He is more important to me. I would rather endure a little pain than stop nursing him. Through much contemplation, (and my pendulum), I don't believe I have rheumatoid arthritis or lupus. I do believe it is inflammatory in nature. I believe it stems from hormones. I am not a doctor but my brain tells me that it could be a thyroid dysfunction (which I will ask on Monday) or an allergy of some kind. I just have to have the patience (which the O'Hara blood in me doesn't afford me) to try and figure out my body.The worst part about pain, is that you can only take it for so long. Friday was a real bad day for me. I was crying most of the day and really depressed. If I didn't have the boys to worry about, I probably would have holed myself up somewhere. It was that bad. Even now as I type, I'm very emotional. Little thoughts make me cry. Enough about that, I need to get some sleep and want to post my first blog with pictures tonight! I wish everyone health, love, joy and wisdom on Valentine's Day and everyday!

Love to my boys,
Love to my hubby, Dave
Love to my friends,